lowest point

i am at the lowest point in my life now... i feel so helpless... and i do not want to feel like this anymore and non of my children and family should feel like this.. was it down to planning or fate. i reckon Allah gave us human the abillity to plan and execute... though some time we fail to do so... and usually we would put the blame on fate... this next few month will be very intresting... i pray to Allah for the success of my new mission. i am not desparate.. though i do not want to feel like this any more... insyallah